Megan Jones

Good thing I don't believe in Friday the 13th. If I did I would most likely have been curled up in bed, under the covers, waiting for it to be the 14th. Instead I had work this morning and am now at home and baking on my afternoon off. Tonight there will be bread! And rolls. And some sort of sticky, sweet bun that I haven't tried before. It's possible that cheese straws may happen before I'm done.

Oh, Merlin, Honeydukes having a half off sale on all their Easter sweets is much too tempting to resist. It's only just lunch time and I've already been there. Well, me and three of my colleagues so far.

[Warded to Wendy]

And a certain Auror.

Because yesterday turned into a stupidly upsetting day, I've decided this morning that today WILL BE BETTER. There will be cake and a visit with my mum and possibly shopping. I have also decided to list the things that make me happy, so that I can come back to it and remind myself of them if I have another day like yesterday.

Things that make me happy (in no particular order):

1. My friends and family.
2. Daisy. She's turning into the cutest little dog.
3. My job.
4. Gardening.
5. Cake and tea with someone I care about.
6. The first spring flowers.
7. Babysitting Heidi and getting glitter everywhere.
8. Walking in the rain in summer.
9. New shoes.
10. Waking up with perfect hair.
11. Not being albe to put down a new book it's so good.
12. Watching old films with Wendy.
13. Making lists, apparently.
14. When Mum decides to spoil me.
15. The thought of being a mum one day.

Oh, Merlin, I can go on and on.

Ugh, I didn't need that today.

Thank you for the mint, Luna. It does smell lovely and I've been having some of it in my water so far today.


[Warded Private]

I think we should postpone the wedding. And not just because of what that woman had said. It's too soon. It's next month and we haven't even sent out new invitations. I still need to find a new dress and decide on a million things and there's just not enough time to do it all. I'm turning into one of those stressed out, obsessive brides-to-be and that's not me. I don't like having rows with my mum over flower colours or cake flavours. I don't like waking up in the middle of the night with a knot in my stomach because I've just remembered SOMETHING ELSE that I've forgotten about in the planning of this damn thing. I was so happy after he asked me to marry him again and I'm not anymore.

I'm going to postpone. We've waited this long. A few more months won't make a difference. And it's not as if we HAVE to get married right now.

Merlin, it was EERIE how she talked about all the things I've been wondering about. Eerie and unsettling and I wish she'd picked someone else to do it to.

I need a hug and a glass of wine and it's not even close to the end of the day yet.

[/Private]

We were going through our magazines at the clinic this morning to throw out the old ones, and we found this completely random questionnaire in an old Witch Weekly. So naturally, because answering questions about yourself is fun (and we're all thirteen, apparently), we all decided to do it.

If you've got time to waste - do it! Here's mine:

What is your zodiac sign? Taurus.
What kind of music do you enjoy listening to? Pop and rock. Some classical. Both Muggle and Wizarding bands.
Do you like sports? Quidditch if the Harpies is playing.
What are two of your favourite foods? Potatoes in any form and strawberries. Pasta. Yes, I know that's three.
Do you have any pets? Yes! A terrier puppy that I've named Daisy.
Do you believe in Divination? I believe there's some truth in it, but I don't go around asking for a reading every time I have to make a decision.
What was your best subject in school? Herbology.
Your worst subject in school? History of Magic. Potions. Both of them because of the teacher if we're being completely honest.
What is your favourite season? Summer.
Are you scared of spiders? Not really, no.
What time do you usually go to bed? That depends. I'm usually in bed by ten.
Do you miss anyone at the moment? My mum for some reason.
Last time you took a bubble bath? Last night.
What is one thing you want to accomplish this year? Does planning a wedding without going mad count as something to accomplish?
What is your favourite holiday? I like them all, because it means family time.
Do you have any allergies? Food allergies, no. And just a bit of seasonal allergies.
What is the last book you read? A book about midwifery and the differences between Muggle and Wizarding practices. A book on gardening. I'm re-reading Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen. I usually have a few books going at a time.
Have you ever been in love? Yes!
Do you believe in love at first sight? No. You can't love someone without getting to know them first.
Do you believe in soul mates? Yes, I do and it's not necessarily just romantic.
What was your last injury and how did it happen? I cut my thumb while chopping vegetables the other night.
If you could have one superhero ability, what would it be? Stop time. Just for those days when you've got so much to do and not nearly enough time.
Do you hate anyone? No.
Are you angry with anyone at the moment? No.
Is there something else you should be doing right now? I'm on lunch, so not really. I could probably be doing something more productive.
Who is the next person you are going to see? One of my co-workers most likely.

Saturday would have been my wedding day. The first one, if I'm being completely accurate. For the longest time I thought that I'd be sad about it as it got closer - even after things got back on track - but I'm not. It's just a day now. Just like that first wedding dress is just a dress. A very pretty dress, but ulitimately one that I'm not going to wear. I'm happy.

I'm even happier that the two most important things are still the same - the man I'm going to marry and the ring he gave me when he asked me to marry him for the first time.


[Warded to Wendy]

We've finally decided on a date! It's going to be 19 May, so we can go forward with the planning now! Am I silly for absolutely loving that it's so close to my birthday?

How is Harry today? And how are you, housekeeping for him?

[/Ward]

I'm having one of those weeks where I've lost a day somehow. I keep on thinking today is Friday. I've had to check my calender three times this morning alone, just to make sure that it was in fact Thursday. Maybe if I write it down I'll remember it: it's NOT Friday today, it's THURSDAY.

It feels as if everyone who's come in since Tuesday has had something to say about that fire at the Malfoy house. It's starting to get unsettling.


[Warded to Wendy]

I've come to the shocking realisation last night that I'm going to need a new wedding dress. The old one's not going to work for the type of informal, summery wedding I've got in mind now.

How is the little miss doing with her new bed?

[/Ward]

I'm taking the last few days of this week off to start on our garden. Dad's coming over and bringing all his expertise as a Herbologist with him, so it should all go smoothly. And then I'll be able to start planting. Merlin, I've bought so many bulbs this weekend and my hands are just itching to get them in the ground. Finally I'll get to put all those magazine pictures of gardens that I've been hoarding to good use.

Here are a few especially pretty ideas:

( Pictures )

[Warded Private]

Merlin, I'm still so angry with Tim, it's not even funny. I can't help but feel that I hadn't handled that whole thing as well as I could have, but then - how do you handle something like that? He was being an arse and I told him so and walked out. I'm not going to have him tell me how I should live my life. He doesn't have to agree with me. I love Eddie and I'm going to marry him and I'll only have one brother at my wedding. I know I'll be able to survive that.

We should probably start to think about dates, so that we can actually plan this wedding. I just don't think I've got the strength for it right now.

[/Ward]


It's wonderfully therapeutic to plant things - even if it's just in pots for now.

I just got an owl and my oldest brother is back in the country! I haven't seen him since Christmas and we're having lunch tomorrow. I'm really glad it's my turn to have the afternoon off. I can't wait to see him.

And I'll most likely still have glitter in my hair by then. There was a small accident and now everything is covered in silver and purple and pink glitter. Even the owl was glittery when it left.


I wish the bastard had stayed in Canada. Stupid me for looking forward to some time with my brother when all he wanted to do was point out all the many mistakes I'm making in my life. Good thing our bottle of wine had already arrived Oh, Merlin. I walked out of a restaurant with a bottle of wine.

It's good wine, though.

So, a few of you will have muffins for breakfast. I started baking tonight and went somewhat overboard. Eddie and I will never be able to eat all of this. The apple and cinnamon ones are particularly amazing, even if I say so myself.

And ladies coming to the clinic tomorrow, there will also be muffins for you!

[Warded to Wendy]

I'm nesting! Just, you know, without the being pregnant bit. I take it as a sign that I am where I'm supposed to be. Also, it's lovely to have a bigger kitchen.

[/Ward]

I'm sitting with my feet up and a glass of wine with Daisy asleep on my lap and I can say that I am moved in and fully unpacked. I'm also not going to do anything for the rest of the day. Unless it involves Eddie or food or more wine or a nap. Or any combination of these four things.

Also, if someone's in need of a place to stay in Hogsmeade there is an adorable one bedroom garden flat available for rent.

[Warded to Wendy]

I just jumped into this, didn't I? Now that it's done it all feels so terribly final. I live here now. There is no going back to my own flat anymore.

How are you and Heidi?

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

It's done. For once in my life I decided to jump and I did and it's going to be all right. It has to be all right.

[/Ward]

And I need more wine.

So, my job change is official now and I'm really looking forward to getting started next week. I am also SO CLOSE to being done with packing. It's really just a few kitchen things and the top two shelves of one book case and when I'm done with that, we can move the last few boxes.

Also, WELL DONE Daily Prophet. Yesterday's edition was a new low - even for you lot.


[Warded to Wendy]

How is Heidi this morning?

[/Ward]

I never thought I'd say this, but I'm moving back to London and looking forward to it. I think a lot of that has to do with the opportunity to start a garden from scratch. I've never had the chance to do that - design my own garden from the ground up, with everything just where I want it. I'm excited beyond words about it.


[Warded to Eddie]

You are the main reason, though.

They've got a few midwives lined up for interviews today, so keep your fingers crossed that they find someone soon.

[/Ward]

[Warded to Wendy]

I forgot to ask on Saturday with everything I had to tell you, but do you still have the magazines and books with ideas that you got together when we started to plan the wedding?

Lunch with Mum and Dad was all right. It didn't go quite as well as it could have. Mum is happy for us, but Dad thinks all of this is happening too fast. I can't say I'm surprised.

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

A job change, moving in with Eddie and getting engaged again. Three big changes all in the same week. Good thing I don't have time or I may have had some sort of panic attack through all of this. It's all fantastic, though, I can't deny that. I just need to get through this week of packing and moving. That's the only thing I'm not looking forward to. Once I'm moved in we can get to the more important things - like a new wedding date and starting to plan my garden. I want to be greedy and have a small green house, too. But garden first. It's almost spring.

[/Ward]

Oh, Merlin, I've got so much to do next week. I really hope I don't catch this cold that everyone seems to have.

Also, I need boxes. Any ideas of where to get some? Apart from going around to shops and asking.

[Warded Private]

Oh, Merlin, I just woke up with a terrible thought. I’ve been so stupidly happy these last few days that I hadn’t realised that most of the reasons we had for breaking up had not gone away. Okay, we’re admittedly better at communicating now, I think. But I’m still a midwife. Eddie’s still an Auror. We still both work insane hours at times. We’re going to have to change something or we’ll end up just like we did the last time. Everything was perfect when we started out - just like it is now. It was perfect and then it wasn’t and I can’t go through that again.

He’s asleep right next to me and just the thought of losing him again makes me want to cry. I’ve got to talk to Edith tomorrow, find out what my options are. If I’ve even really got options where I can have more manageable hours and stay at the clinic. If not, I’ll have to find something else. Herbology maybe, somewhere. And it’s not even just for Eddie or for us that I need to do this. I want children somewhere in the future and I want to be there for them. Every day. Not just every second week and unable to make any plans. Why have I never thought of this?

I’ve got to find out and then we’re going to have to sit down and really talk about this.

[/Ward]

Ugh, I need tea or I'm not going to get back to sleep.

Going to visit someone with a puppy is almost as bad as going to visit with a baby. It's a bed and toys and a blanket and food. And then another toy, because she may get bored with the one she's got. It almost took me longer to get her things together than my own.


[Warded to Wendy]

So, have you talked to him again?

[/Ward]


[Warded to Eddie]

Thank you for dinner and the play last night. I had a fantastic time.

And for breakfast this morning. That was even better.

What do you think of Italy for our holiday?

[/Ward]


[Warded Private]

Oh, Merlin, I don't even know what to write here. If I allow myself I'll probably make a noise only dogs can hear, I'm so happy.

[/Ward]

This puppy is definitely a girl. A girl who likes shoes a lot. Thank Merlin she's just carrying them to her bed and not chewing on them (so far). Also it's always the left shoe for some reason.

I should probably start to think about holidays. I have time off coming up during the summer and I really want to go somewhere this year.

We're making up this week for being snowed in last week. It's only Wednesday and I already want it to be Saturday again, I've been running around so much. Good thing I enjoy my job as much as I do.

I also have this waiting at home for me:

( Puppy! )

Her name is Daisy and my brother surprised me with her Monday afternoon after work. Of course then I had to feed the silly git for his troubles.


[Warded Private]

I still find it hard to believe that Saturday's lunch with Eddie had gone as well as it had. Not that I'm complaining. For the first time in months I don't feel like some animal that wants to just curl up and hibernate until I feel better. I'm happy with us taking it slow and seeing where it takes us. This is good.

[/Ward]